I get invited to parties all the time where I can go smoke and drink and these people are cool and super nice people, but they’re also not doing the right thing- and that’s where I know that I’m living my life through Christ. I no longer have that desire to go and do those things, because I’ve given my life to him.
My family has gone in and out of houses, from couch to couch. We had big time financial issues- especially when I was younger. Just recently I got into a really toxic relationship, and instead of revolving myself around God and the bible and letting that control my life, my center concentration was this girl. I let her control my life and that lead me down several negative paths that got me into serious trouble. One day, about two weeks after we broke up, I was crying in my room and I thought to myself- I have no one to turn to. I felt like my mom hates me, and I had no friends to turn to, because I gave everything up for this girl. Who do I turn to? So I started to pray to God that night and trying to get my life together. After a month of praying and trying to do right, God just kind of took over. He’s been there ever since.
I felt like if I was going to rely on God, I’m not just going to only put in partial effort or give him only some parts of my life, but keep some to myself and live it how I want to. I was like- I’m going to do it your way. I’m going to give my whole life to Him and let Him control it.
I’ve always said that I love God and believe in God, but I’ve never felt it like I have these past four months. 1st Corinthian 13: 4-7 talks about the love we’re supposed to have for each other and it has influenced me so much. One of my young life leaders told me to replace one of those words with Jesus, and that just shows how much Jesus loves us. The fact that he died on the cross for us and that he can forgive, gives us the power to forgive and love others, just as he does for us. It’s overwhelming honestly, because he loves us so much.
Just be nice to people. Don’t slam a bible at them- build a relationship with them. Then if they ever need someone to come to, they know they can trust you. They can have somebody. That's how I show God's love.